We reap what we sow...

"We sow an action; we reap a habit.

We sow a habit; we reap a character.

We sow a character; we reap a destiny."

Robert E. Armes

*Best Summer Memories*

1. Kenny Chesney concert

2. Moving into a new apartment with a wonderful friend

3. Billy Currington concert

4. Swimming & water-gun fights at the Boat club

5. Swimming, laying out, and relaxing in the hottub!!

6. Long Sunday dinners at grandma's...

7. Jim Miller Classic

8. Camping at Miller Lake

9. George Strait concert!

10. Jason Aldean concert/weekend trip!

11. Rhino rides

12. Learning to be a better sister, friend, teacher, & role-model...

This was after Bri's impacted teeth surgery- she's probably gonna kill me :) haha!

I start my 3rd year of school on the 31st! Where has the summer gone?! As you can see, I've had a wonderful summer with lots of good memories to last me another year:) I'm so excited to finally be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel in school!! I'll be way past ready to graduate in '11.

Hopefully I'm completely healed by the time I head back. This past Thursday I had my wisdom teeth pulled out and that night I felt fine... but Friday, Sat., & Sunday I formed this huge knot on my left cheek that wouldn't go down... so I went in for a check-up on Monday and it turns out that I got hematoma. That means that while they were working on my teeth they busted some blood vessels in my cheek!! The knot is slowly draining and the swelling is finally almost done; hopefully i'll be problem-free for the rest of the process:)!

Hope everyone had a wonderful summer!!

~JM~

25th Anniversary

It broke my heart for this day to arrive; a day that I had been planning to celebrate for quite some time... It's amazing how so many hopes and dreams can go up in smoke in only a matter of seconds- a part of me was taken in those seconds, a part of me that I will never get back. I want to go back, I want to relive, and I want to undo... but I can't. For some unknown reason that I will never understand, I'm supposed to go on. I'm being told to put one foot in front of the other and walk, while the one that taught me to walk is now missing. And after 9 months it's still hard; I still hurt, I still grieve, and I probably always will, but instead of always carrying the pain around, I want to learn to live again. It's going to take a lot of prayers, encouragement, and probably a little nudging, but I want to learn to live... only this time for 2! I want to stand for what he stood for, and build my life like he did- on solid ground.

Happy Anniversary, Mom & Dad.. I love you both so very much!!

I miss you more than ever...

~JM~

9 months without you...

We had our backyard engraved on the stone with Briona, Baleigh, & I, my willow tree that he planted in October, and of course our puppy:)

Last night marked the 9th month that you've been absent from my ever so different life. Sometimes I wonder if my heart will ever be able to love fully- without the fear of losing again. Everyday seems to mark a lifetime without you and there are days that the struggle seems suffocating, like it's going to pull me in. I know that I can't live in the past forever, but right now that's the only place my heart can seem to find rest. I still see you when I close my eyes at night, and when I wake in the morning. In my heart there will always be a place for you, for all of my life. I love you, daddy...

~JM~