Not In Her Storm

To a very special friend who I believe in with all of my heart:

Not In Her Storm
by Sauni


I see the clouds rolling in and bringing pouring rain

And it is always, I fight for the welcome change

When it rains it pours on this heart of mine

So, I take the storms I feel to her each time.

But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain

Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change

She can walk away from what hangs overhead

And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.

Not in her storm have I ever felt alone

Her storm ends, so I may find my way home

It's for me that she pushes away her own rain

So, that I may find comfort in calling her name.

She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart-

How she eases the miles when worlds apart

And she never wanders when your world falls through

Not ever in her storm would she do this to you.

She has wings that I know not only I can see

Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me

It's the way that the eyes can surely view

How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.

Not in her storm is her work ever done

And even in her storm she hands me the sun

When her world is dark - I always have light

And now how I hold the new color of night.

She takes then she gives to an unhappy face

So that many can find an amazing place

I have been able to love her more every day

And with her hand in mine the clouds roll away.

Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath

Could ever change what I hold here inside of me

Not in any of her storms have I lost my angels touch

To that angel out there, I love her so much.

After losing my dad, I prayed for the opportunity to be able to repay the people that were there for me and still are to this very day, but I never saw it coming to this. Sometimes I wonder why life works out the way it does, but that is for God to decide, not me. No matter how many hours I sit and ponder the ways of God, I will never come an inch closer to the wisdom He holds. Life seems unfair so many times, but I like to believe it's because there's a mountain top that I'm supposed to reach and on top of that mountain are unspeakable things that God has in store for me. There are days that I don't feel strong; that I'm weak, weary, and ready to give in, but I know that no matter how weak I am, God will never give up on me because I am here for a reason, and though I may never know that reason, it still brings a hope to my life- A hope to fight for what I have been given. I was given 19 beautiful years with a father that most little girls long for, a family that has shaped, touched, and transformed my life into what it is today, and friends that are willing to walk through the rain with me no matter how long my heart continues to bleed. I am so blessed to have the life that I do and even more blessed to share a special friendship with someone that I can be there for, while she is still there for me. Our journey towards healing may be long and treacherous, but together and with the help of others, we can make it up the mountain.

The picture above and these below were taken this past March in Sarasota, Florida. I know it's kind of late- but I thought I would share them anyway!

All my love,

~JM~