God it Hurts

God it hurts

I said 'God it hurts'

And God said 'I Know'

I said 'God I cry alot'

And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'

I said 'God I get so depressed'

And God said 'That's why I gave you sunshine'

I said 'God I feel Alone'

And God said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'

I said 'God my loved one is dead'

And God said 'I watched mine be nailed to the cross'

I said God 'Where are they? '

And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the Light'

I said 'God it hurts'

And God said 'I know'...

Amy Louise Kerswell

I have been asked the question several times..."Why did you decide to start a blog?"

I started this blog because it reminded me of life... the life that I lived with my dad still physically in my life. I write because I want to remember... the small things, the big moments; I want to remember everything about his life and the struggle that I am still going through today. I write so that others will remember him and see the impact he had on so many lives; I write so my sisters can see his life from my perspective once they're a little older, and for my mom so that we may fight for life together; I write to express myself and to see my small steps; I write what is on my heart.... I write for all of those reasons, but most of all, I write for the ones that will never know him. I write so that one day my children will be able to know the life of their grandpa and understand the reasons I wanted him in their lives so badly... I write for my future neices and nephews, so that our dad will always be a strong rock in our children's lives.... And finally, I write for him.... so that I may always see his smile, hear his laughter, and feel his arms wrapped so tightly around me, no matter where I may be.

~JM~